Your Brain is 46.67% Female, 53.33% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

i have to say that 170305 was THE BEST day ever for 2005 so far! i had a great great lunch...well we ate at kfc...so how bad can the food be right? but the food wasnt the highlight...it was the company that i was with...yeah so i was 5 mins late...but only cos i went back upstairs to get her present! well she didnt need to know that anyway...heh...we ate n talked n talked n talked n talked for what seemed to be eternity! of cos eternity passed too quickly if u ask me...heh...but yeah...it was such a lovely day...the weather was great...the sun was shining...the wind was light but refreshing...n the view just seemed to be at its ultimate bestest ever! the 2 hr period that we had spent together felt like it was 24 hrs! n even then 24 hrs seemed too short a time for such a fantastic chat...ok so im repeating this n exaggerating...but hey gimme a break man...i flew all the way down for a chance to see her face n hope for the best...unfortunately i saw her face...spent time with her...but i still came back to sg "empty handed"...she's still not over her ex...n judging by the college square dinner...she's not gonna be over him anytime soon...pretty much in rapport with what she claims...but i still gotta try...im not gonna give up so easily without a fight! i expect it to be a losing battle...but at least if i lose i can still hold my head up high n say i gave it my all n i gave her whatever i could...if it isnt good enough for her then ive nothing to say but march on with life n find someone else who'll appreciate me...but if i succeed...then i can busk in my own ego that i worked to get what i deserve...

hmmm im talking to much crap aint i? owell whats most important is that i know what im talking about...hah...


give me a chance, let me make you happy again.

fuck cmpb...
fuck ns...
fuck u singapore.

...to jill...for being a great friend today...although she didnt really say much to me n all...but her prescence alone helped me take my mind off certain things...well mainly one thing in particular...but thats besides the point anyway...

after all that waiting at the club...n the 5643758290 year long journey to suntec...n the squeezing n pushing at the IT show...then the journey back that passed too quickly...my mood felt so much lighter...i couldnt help but smile when i finally got the chance to sit down...

thank u...for being u...jill... :)

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i'll wait for u...

damn...i havent gotten rejected on the court for so long maybe i forgot what it felt like...but now im sure this kinda rejection feels worse...10000 times worse to be exact...

hmmm but then again she didnt really turn me down did she? hah no...she did turn me down...she just tried to make it easier for me to accept...

owell...to wait or not to wait? to persevere or not to persevere? is she worth it?

sheesh...n to think i thought she would sms me so it'll be easier to tell me...but nope...it comes in 2 emails...are flowers still on the to-do list? im really not sure...i guess the dog'll will have to go to her alone...

i have so many million thoughts about bmt man...i gotta dedicate an entry to my best pal in bmt...n thoughts about a certain asshole in my platoon...all the shit i did...damn man too much to talk about sial....haha...whee!! aussieland here i come! i wonder how much a bouquet of roses would cost in melb...hmmm...

hehehe...IM COMING TO MELB!!!

i wanna go to melb!! i wanna see my family!! i wanna know her reply...i wanna know n i wanna go! owell things dont always go ur way in life...so come what may...the Lord will be my shepherd.