this weekend was good i must say...bowling...then watched starwars with boss limo edmund n xannz...hung out together some...shared some army stories n stuff...shared some laughs...n best of all...the company was great...now the only person that we really missed was jabez...N WHERE THE HELL ARE U JABEZ???!?!?!?! sheesh...haha...so as i was saying...monday i went to get my lighter bowling ball drilled...n i must say...im mighty pleased with it...looks like it'll be the answer for my short term bowling form...goodz goodz! hmmm so tues was a pretty slack day in smm...basically returned stores...tied up admin stuff...n boom! the day was over!! well it was a great day until one foolish guy had to start a fight with another platoon mate until they were bruised n all...so we had to go straight to bed n werent allowed to enjoy our last night in smm as trainees...owell...no big deal though...hur...so today was really slack...packed up our barang barang...received medic arm bands...'souvenir'...had decent refreshments...n finally POSTING! low n behold right before ur eyes...is CLEMENT LIN THE COMMANDO MEDIC!!!!! *lightning crashes in the background* hur...my new unit is 1st commando battalion...which is basically hendon camp near cbc...a pretty good posting actually...only problem is....I MIGHT HAVE TO STAY IN!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

sigh...reporting to my new camp tmr...hopefully things'll be good...hopfully...

alright man! i bowled my first game after 2 years from laying off bowling...n woo hoo hoo i am mighty pleased with myself...heh...for one...my consistencey hasnt totally deserted me even though my wrist n quad strength has...yeah so my ball doesnt hook as much...or my ball doesnt rev as much...but at least i can keep hitting my target...n thats good enough for me considering its only my 2nd week back in training...n at the end of training...we had a warm down game to have a little fun...n whoopie! i bowled a 202 man! i expected to maybe bowl a 170-180 but hitting a 200 game was way above my own expectations! i was over the moon after the game n i had to really contain it to keep cool man...haha...jumping up n down wouldnt really be that glamorous in front of so many parents n bowlers right...heh...woo hoo! hopefully i wont let the team down next week!

woo hoo! went bowling today! n man it felt so darned good to walk down the approach n release a beautiful shot down the lane! ok so yeah i was a little rusty...but i could see n feel my past abilities still hiding some where inside my muscles aching n wanting to be released again...made a few good releases n the roll on my ball was fantastic man...it was the kind of ball i threw when i was at my peak...n that was nearly 2 years ago! haha...i really cant wait to compete in the league again...then i'll show everyone what the interclub league missed when clement lin wasnt around! muahahaha! ok im kidding myself arent i...haha...weirdly my knee's feeling better than ever...but i my wrist feels a little injured...think i over did it a little today...nevermind...after a week's rest...i'll see how things go...hopefully i'll be fit enough to bowl again! woo hoo!!

...ive discovered that jay chou's songs are nice...im kinda slow cos i dont listen to chinese songs...but out of curiosity i listened to a song of his n wasnt too bad...so i dl-ed as many songs as i could n hey presto! im here enjoying his songs...haha...owell going back into camp tonight...3 more weeks n im no longer a trainee! hah...n come 10th of june...i'll be a happy man for certain happy reasons! heh...i hope things'll turn out as well as i hope it will!

im sitting here at night...thinking...missing...wishing...n praying...for someone i care so dearly for...yet i hardly even know what she thinks of me...or whether any slightest part of her feels the same way about me as i do for her...am i a fool for chasing n waiting for her? am i a fool to limit my 'lovelife' for her? am i a fool for even having feelings for her? am i a fool for thinking i stand a chance? i dont have answers for all the questions life poses to me...but for one question...i have an answer so certain im unmistaken...yes i do want to be with her...i want to make her the happiest person in the world...i'd do everything in my power for that beautiful smile to be on her face as often as the sun rises from the east...i want her to feel the warmth that God blessed on all human beings...i want her to know that not all the guys in the world are the same...i want her to know that im serious about her...i want her to know i'll always be there for her...i want her to know that if she'll let me...i'll love her with every beat of my heart.

if only i could repeat this in front of her...

bloody s?f cheated me! im a freaking service medic but now during combat phase...i have to go thru whatever the combat medics do! knnccb!!! farking hell a55holes wasting my life! i hope they burn in hell!