sigh...

its been a nice long long long weekend; thurs, fri, yesterday, n today i was on leave.

met up with addy n simin, spent monday with changyi n andrew, had my last driving lesson today. gosh im one busy dude i must say, lol!

anyway every time i sit in a car, it just sorta fuels my urge to be behind the wheel again, n drive myself around as n when i'd like. like what i told my sis, driving just seems to be an outlet for my stress n problems; everytime i drive, im at peace with the world (except when taxi drivers piss me off), i get a sense of relief when i drive on an open road where i can soak up the sights n sounds of whatever im passing by, n i tend to get distracted n have this tendency to speed. lol. (hope my parents wont know this, lol!)

i guess cos since i was young i was a car enthusiast, n whenever i'd ask my dad when i could drive his car, he'd tell me "son, the day u can drive, will be the day i retire". he hasnt retired. n i guess cos of that, i'd like my dad to relax more, let me take over the chauffeuring duties of the family. he's been driving my mom, my sis, n myself around for like 20+ years; its time "junior" took over the chore aye pops?

anyway, i gotta go back to camp tmr to do my last duty for my tour of duty in SAF. then thurs is my unit anniversary celebration, n friday night is some "gala dinner" in hendon for the formation anniversary celebrations. like WTH man, the "gala" dinner will be held in the PARADE SQUARE. -.- zzzzz thanks a lot man.

i want to buy my w710i soon!

the end is near; so near i can smell it already. i cant stand it, yet i cant wait for it to happen. its the 3 words that is compressed into a 3 lettered acronym encrpyted together with an exclamatory figure of speach; ORD loh!

i start clearing leave at the end of this week (thurs). i'd never thought that it'll be my turn to say it, but finally that day is here. 1 year n 10 months has flown by quicker than i expected it to. i always thought that a year would pass at the flicker of an eye, but 2 years would require a few more flickers. unknowingly im already nearing the end of my tour of duty to serve the country where i grew up. it is a country that holds so many memoriers for me; good ones, and yet bad ones. never the less, they are memories of my past. i struggled through each passing day in the army, which then became each week, each fortnight, each month, each quarter of a year, then a year passed before i knew it. n now, the next year is about to pass, the year where i walk through the exit of a room called "teenage".

its was sad participating in this year's inter-club youth league; everywhere i turned, there were new faces, faces i didnt recognize. back in acsi, i knew practically everyone in the league, n each week was a fantastic gathering of singapore's future in the sport, where a friendly competition helped to groom fighting spirit in each competitor, n yet teach each youth a thing or 2 about team work. i felt old, really old, each week i went this year. i remember when i was younger, still in acsi, i wanted so much to grow up, to start to drive my old folks around, to go through the army in ocs, to go into uni to taste what the world had to offer. now, when im at that stage, i wish i could go back to the years i was in acsi again. people often told me that your years in jc would be the most significant in your life, n though i agree that to some, that would hold true, i feel that some like myself will feel that the time spent in secondary school makes up a large part of the wonderful memories in your life. n significance of cos goes without saying.

having blared all that, i know its too late to embrace my years in acsi even tighter, n too late to say certain things to certain people. but still, it isnt too late to say, i'll be leaving the army soon, and i cant wait!

the end is near, i can smell it.
its coming, its getting nearer, i cant avoid it, it MUST happen.
I WILL ORD.